nowadays, i feel such a feeling. the loneliness. the emptiness. the soulless.
no more friends to talk (its compulsory in schooldays)
no more homework to do (its compulsory when you are teached by Pn Tan Sui Hiong)
no more strangers to meet (its also compulsory)
no more girls to smile at (err.. quite compulsory)
no more uniforms to wear
no more small mirror or CD to look at my hair
no more sleepiness in the classroom
no more wishes for the teachers before the lesson started
no more nasik lemak Adnan (very compulsory)
and the list goes on....
the feelings makes me want to get a girl to be her boyfriend. no surprises. i would love to be greeted by a girl's voice every morning, to be taken care of, to be wished when its my birthday, to be very special in her heart, to get the feeling that im always besides her and vice versa.
but my dark side raged me to be a single person so that i can always do anything on my own and not being affected by other's feeling. my heart is quite torn apart.
i hope that this 'special' feeling will deteriorate when im reporting for the national service. i hope i will enjoy my life there and becomes the best cadet. there are no gains wtihout pains.
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